Either God is who He says He is, or He’s not. Either you believe that, or you don’t. There’s no in between.
When I was 20 years old, I did a Beth Moore study called Believing God. At that point in my faith, I had a really hard time reading the Bible by myself. I got frustrated a lot when I would read it, and it felt so confusing! It felt like I was missing important history and back-stories, and it left me having a hard time understanding its true message. Beth Moore helped me bridge that “knowledge” gap. Her studies often explained the history behind each story, and they helped me mentally paint a picture while reading. I really enjoyed studying with Beth Moore, and she helped to build my confidence in reading the Bible by myself. I fell in love with Jesus all over again when doing her study entitled, Jesus: 90 Days with the One and Only. Now that I’m further in my faith, I understand the importance of spending quiet time in the Bible, not just through study. However, at that time of my life, God met me exactly where I was. I promise all of this has a point, and I’m not just trying to sell you her books!
In her Believing God study, she made us repeat out loud a 5-statement pledge of faith before every study:
“God is who He says He is.
God can do what He says He can do.
I am who God says I am. I can do all things through Christ.
God’s word is alive and active in me.”
Those statements were a great and encouraging reminder to me, and I still think about them to this day. In fact, I still have them pasted on my college Bible!
Eight years later, my faith was being tested during this walk through infertility, and all I could think about is, God, who do You say You are? I knew God was good. I knew He was faithful, but what else? Who is God, really? The more pain I was experiencing, the more I wanted to know about Him, His character, and His personality. I had this intense desire to hear from God himself, not through anyone else, not through a study, but directly from His word. I started reading Isaiah, then Job, then the gospels. I started keeping a list of who He says He was, and my quiet times resembled something like this (click any of the responses for their “street address”):
Hey God, Who are you?
Lord, What do you think of me?
Father, What are your promises for me?
Weeks passed with my pen, journal, and my Bible. I got my answers. I read for myself who He says He is, and I believed. It’s funny how it took me 8 years to dig into that truth for myself. I had always believed, but now I had more of a foundation for my belief. I wasn’t believing blindly. I had specific things to hold on to during this trial. If God had my best in mind, if He loved me, and He promised to help me, then I knew I could get through this no matter what the outcome.
I wanted desperately to know Him. I wanted desperately to feel Him. I wanted desperately to hear from Him. So, I asked him for a dream. (You weren’t expecting that were you?) Y’all, I was desperate. Like tears falling down, lock myself in my room, banging on His throne, desperate. I believed all He was saying, but I wanted some kind of encouragement from Him.
Lord, I believe you and who You say You are, and I know I can trust you. I know you don’t have to tell me, but Lord I ask that you will make yourself known to me through a dream. What do you have for me?
That night, He did just that. He gave me a dream. I don’t know where I was in the dream, but I was holding a pregnancy test with two pink lines. It was positive, and I was screaming and crying with happiness. When I woke up, I tried desperately to go back to sleep because the dream felt so real. It was so vivid, and I was able to remember each detail. He answered my desperate prayer, and I was so encouraged. I’ve never really had that happen before, and I don’t expect that to happen every time I ask, but it was so encouraging to me. Little did I know what was coming next.
What do you think of when you think of God?
Do you believe God is who He says He is?
What holds you back from trusting that He won’t let you down?
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